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Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003
2:09 am - NEW JOURNAL!!
I have a new journal...
Just visit AbusedObsession

(streak the streets)

Monday, October 20th, 2003
8:23 pm - Oh man...
I've been soooo bitchy lately, its not even funny!
Today I told my dad to shut-up... Then I hit him really hard in the shoulder, but it still didn't get the point through.
"Ovary cramp and the Tampon's saucy"-Annoymous. (I think we all know who made that one up!)
^WORD^

Im trying to come up with a really good name for my journal, and then Im going to make it friends only.
This new one will not be filled with crap, just thoughts... However, I will still be using this journal to fill up the crap space I have left in it!

current mood: Tampon?

(streak the streets)

Sunday, October 19th, 2003
5:33 pm - By The Way...
I want to start a new Live Journal, If any of you wanna give me a password, feel free to!
This journal is just filled with crap, and Im sick of it!

current mood: bored

(3got arrested | streak the streets)

5:28 pm - HAHA...
I think it's funny that I can't stay upset for moe than a day or two....
.... There's still a lot on my mind, but Im not as pissed off as I was before... Woop Woop!

current mood: amused

(2got arrested | streak the streets)

4:30 am - Whatever...
I think it's funny how nobody knows what's going on with me right now. I hate it when people say they "know" me. No, not hate it, but it annoys the hell out of me... Man, a lot has been running through my head, and I don't know if I'm going to be able to hold it all in any longer.
FUCK THIS SHIT

I almost want to just keep to myself, and become a bitter person, and THAT scares me. The fact that I feel this way. Now-A-Days Friendship/love/trust...They all scare me. I hope this is another normal teenage thing, but what I really hope is that it's something normal for me.
I don't know why I've been so...so disconnected from everything lately but I do have a feeling that it's something to do with my mind...
This is really coming to an end...
And Im coming down from all of this and hitting reality...
...FAST.


:::NOTE:::
Anyone who does not comment on this... it doesn't have to be on what Im saying, but you do have to comment, because if not not, Im deleting you from my friends list. I do not want to have a long friends page anymore...a page full of nonsense people, who really don't matter anyways (Most of you)

current mood: awake

(12got arrested | streak the streets)

Saturday, October 18th, 2003
1:13 am - Man...
I can't sleep.
I hate times like these.. I have no one interesting to talk to.
So anything cool happen today?
NO.
I slept like a Mo'Fo and then watched more of the LifeTime channel.
Golden girls episode rocked. I love the Golden girls.

Hmmm...
What do you all do when you get bored? I just stare blankly at the screen, or lay down in my bed and stare at my Glow-In-The-Dark Stars. Or write in my journal.

I wish I had something to do... I wish I had friends... I only have TWO friends... Xoie... and then there's Tracey. I hang out with mah Xoie a lot, she has many friends. So I guess there's no room for complaining, but I wish I had friends of my own.

Im so moving to Seattle with my dad when he goes... Ill miss my whole two friends dearly but I think Ill manage with the people (who hopefully will kick ass) out there. That wont be for a while so Im stuck out in Port Orchard for a LOOOOOOOONG time. I hate it here, I wish I was just 18 and I could just LEAVE.

My Grandma was sad today... She has liver problems and today she was in a lot of pain, and Im scared to think of what that means, so is the rest of my family. I mean, no offense to any relatives out there, but my grandma is the LAST person in my family that I want to die, besides my dad. I wish it could just be my sister or something, oh how I hate her.

My sister is gone, once again, and has left my 1 year old nephew to my Grandmother (whose dying) to take care of. I've never known such a selfish/greedy/lying/ bitch. If I was bigger than her, there would be some real ass kicking up in yah. (And I HATE violence, so what's that saying?)

current mood: In need of a sleeping pill.

(4got arrested | streak the streets)

Thursday, October 16th, 2003
10:49 pm - Alright, THATS IT!
Im sick of my fucking hair, its too hard for me to handle, Im getting a haircut, my hair will be shorter and easier to deal with. I need to bleach it white, also. Maybe get it colored..

I need to start doing sit ups too, these damn legs dont fit my upper body.

Im going to the Mindless Self Indulgence concert! Whoop whoop!

current mood: crappy

(4got arrested | streak the streets)

7:46 pm - IM THE AWAY-MESSAGE QUEEN!!
I gave everyone on my buddy list a comment on their away messages ( 7 friggin people were away!!! ) I hate it when people write the stupidest crap on the away messages, or like Toby, He never writes anything, its always blank.
Meh, nothing interesting today, I was sick and watched the LifeTime channel all day! There was this one movie on and it was like 3 hours long, it was pretty good... Gabriel threw up all over the bed last night so Gramma was doing laundry all day! Poor baby, Hes always sick. This family is really unhealthy:\.

(streak the streets)

Wednesday, October 15th, 2003
11:51 pm - IM SICK...AGAIN!!!!
I absolutely HATE being sick.
So I guess me and Zorro have the flu...*Sigh* Too bad.

PEOPLE AT MY SCHOOL ARE PEDOPHILES!!!
Theres these two girls ones 13, and the others 14, and they think my brother, whose 11, is hott!! What the crap? Thats soo wrong, and I guess the 13 year old chick made out with him.... WITH TOUNGUE!!!! Oh mah God! He shouldnt even know how to do that kind of stuff!!! HES 11 YEARS OLD! And my little brother... So tell me... Do I have a reason to freak about this or not? Its just so wrong to me!

Well me and my sick ass are going to sleep...Probably not, but Im going to try!

current mood: sore

(2got arrested | streak the streets)

Tuesday, October 14th, 2003
9:58 pm - Im sorry for writing such stupid crap in my journal...
But, I do have to say, Some people make my self respect really low...I hate that, You types of people can lick my anus.
Thats what I have to say to that.

(4got arrested | streak the streets)

Sunday, October 12th, 2003
2:44 pm - It's a 3 Day Weekend...
...And I havn't done shit.
I wish I had a phone card, I need to call Xoie and see what's going on. So I think I'm going to go ask my dad to run to the store.

current mood: bored

(streak the streets)

Saturday, October 11th, 2003
8:27 pm - Things Alyssa likes and hates...
Hates:
[1] People who IM you asking who you are, when they're not even on your buddy list.
[2]When people make me cry
[3]Being alone
[4]MAGGOTS!!!
[5]Not having anything to do on the weekends.
[6]Running out of cigs.
[7]Long car rides
[8]Screetching girls
[9]People who just don't get the word "NO!"
[10]Liars
[11]Awkward moments.
[12]Peer pressure
[13]Cocky Bastards
[14]Smelly feet

Likes:
[1]Being in the car at night.
[2]Going to Oregon
[3]My smokes
[4]Cuddling
[5]Music
[6]Dolls
[7]Beer
[8]Skinny, short guys
[9]Hanging out with friends
[10]Going to good shows with The Xoie
[11]Parties
[12]knitted hats
[13]Fitted clothes
[14]Trust
[15]Mike Patton

Eh that wasnt so long, or not as long as I wanted it to be...
This might continue in the future...

current mood: bored

(streak the streets)

Friday, October 10th, 2003
11:18 pm
Is it that hard to call if you're not planning on coming over?
Gah.
Fuck you too man.

current mood: confused

(2got arrested | streak the streets)

Thursday, October 9th, 2003
10:37 pm - BLAH
I hate being tired.

current mood: numb

(2got arrested | streak the streets)

9:47 pm - Awe...
Took a long long bath!
I got new lotion and make up (since I left mine at a park next to a tire swing)

:::NOTE TO TRACEY:::
Wanna get hitched when we're 30?
I think you're one of the hottest chicks I know, what do you say?
Hahaha.

:::NOTE TO XOIE:::
I'm going to be at your house Saturday between 12:30 and 1:30
Cell phone is turned off tomorrow so I have no other way to talk to you!
BAH!

Anyhoo, I've said what I need to say.
LOVE,
Alyssa

(2got arrested | streak the streets)

Wednesday, October 8th, 2003
9:27 pm - And I love life...
I don't know why...
But it just hit me after talking to this guy...
That I'm a really happy person, sure I get sad sometimes, But doesn't everyone?
I'm a normal teenager, and I don't have any problems, Really..
The only problems with me right now is boys and rides to Tacoma, But that's all normal.
So what do I have to worry about?
Nothing. Nothing upon nothing.
Rad?
No, that's fucking GREAT!

Anyhoo..
Things are going to change, and I don't know what's going to change, or when, But I do know they're definately going to change, and hopefully in a positive way.

I miss you all out there in Tacoma, and Puyallup, Lakewood...
I love you all.

current mood: happy

(2got arrested | streak the streets)

Monday, October 6th, 2003
10:07 pm - More bitching about BLAH
WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY EMOTIONS?!!!
I don't get this, I feel like I don't even know whats going on anymore.
You confuse me, guy.
I don't know what youre pulling but it sure as hell works, and that's the scary part.
I hate dating, I hate guys, I think I hate EVERYTHING right now.
Fuck you Jesse, fuck you Brandon, fuck you guy. You can all die.
Maybe.
Maybe I'm wrong and getting paranoid, but I don't get paranoid, that's not me. God I'm so confused right now!

AAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!

current mood: confused

(8got arrested | streak the streets)

7:55 pm - Uhhh...
"Oh My God..I can not believe he made out with her, she's such a hoochie! Oh My God.. I don't like him or anything but what the fuck she's such a hoe!"
I hate the people at my school sometimes. They're really stupid.

Guys are confusing, I don't know what they want from me!
God, I hate you.

-Alyssa-

current mood: weird

(2got arrested | streak the streets)

Friday, October 3rd, 2003
10:38 pm - What Time is it?
It's time for Alyssa to relax and have a bath, and wait for that guy to call.
OHH YEAA!

current mood: calm

(streak the streets)

7:48 pm - What now?
Don't you hate it when you dont know whats going on?
When you never have anyone to hang out with but one person?
When that one person has friends and you dont?
Maybe Im just not making an effort, but I sure as hell do feel lonely, and almost as if Im going to cry.
I miss Xoie.
I hope she can see me tonight...I REALLY hope she comes to get me tonight.
I hope shes not just hanging out with Liz and not gonna be able to pick me up... That will really suck.
I want to move back to Tacoma...
I'm sooo homesick, you don't even know.
There's NOTHING out here.
God I fucking hate this. Damnit.

NOTE TO XOIE:
Email me or something, get on. I MISS YOU A LOT!
Peace out Corn Wallis.

-Alyssa-

current mood: I wanna go HOME. (Xoies)

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